2nd Why I Say That I Am the Messiah

A part of the reason why I cleave to the idea of being the Messiah is because I have bipolar. I gave up on the cyclic idea of, "Now I am manic and the Messiah, and then when I am not feeling so good saying that I am not the Messiah." There will always come another time when I think that I am the Messiah, so I will own it and I will wear it on my soul.

2nd Why I Say That I Am the Messiah

A part of the reason why I cleave to the idea of being the Messiah is because I have bipolar. I gave up on the cyclic idea of, "Now I am manic and the Messiah, and then when I am not feeling so good saying that I am not the Messiah."  There will always come another time when I think that I am the Messiah, so I will own it and I will wear it on my soul.

The Greatest Command: To Love Gd or To Love One's Neighbor, Which Is It?

On the greatest command; I believe that it is to love your neighbor because this command is at the heart of every great religion.  Thus, I do not believe that the greatest command is to love the L-rd your Gd with all of your heart, strength, and mind.  Jesus was wrong.    Surely, we would have found world peace by now if Jesus were correct on this matter, but as we tick past another thousand years with no world peace, it only highlights that Jesus was incorrect.

If you ask folks of every religion about Gd, there would most likely be differing opinions and arguments, especially even among members of the same faith.  These arguments go nowhere, and are often heartfelt, despite that they are on the same subject.  On the issue of Gd, when it comes to various religions, the people of earth spin their wheels and get nowhere.  Surely, this should not be the focal point of religion.  The focal point should be ethics, and even the ethics about how to treat folks of other religions that believe in a different Gd that you believe in.

As Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Lydia said, when he was asked which is greater, to love God or your neighbor; this Rabbi said to love your neighbor because then you are loving the ones whom God loves.  He was correct.  The focus of religion should be ethics, including the ethics of faith.  However, if we can not get along despite the fact that we believe in Gd, especially over issues such as the name of Gd, then all of our faith is practically for nothing.  

We are put here on earth for a specific reason.  That reason is our purpose.  That purpose according to my Bible is to act ethically to our neighbors for if we don't get along our faith is as nothing.

Live By Your Words, No Matter How Fantastic They Seem and Live to Be 1,000!!!

My reasoning for believing that I am the Messiah comes from sound Biblical reasoning.

March 25th, 2000 I was hospitalized for psychosis. When I saw the doctor, he had a yarmulke on, so I figure that he is Jewish, and for some reason, completely insanity, and not knowing what I was saying I stated that I am the Messiah. Since, then I have been unable to shake that belief, and the Bible says that is the correct thing to do, "You must fulfill what has crossed your lips and perform what you have voluntarily vowed to the Lord your God, having made the promise with your own mouth (Deuteronomy 23:24 JPS, others 23:23)

"Positive Commandment 94

Fulfilling Verbal Obligations

"That which issues from your lips you shall keep and perform"—Deuteronomy 23:24.

We are commanded to carry through that which we pledge to do [or not to do]."

http://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/961490/jewish/Positive-Commandment-94.htm

Strangely, the pathway back to sanity has no been to apologize, and say that I am sorry for stating that I said I am the messiah.  In order to understand this, I must live by what I have said.  I have no intent on being a liar.  I don't even wish to be a superstar.  What I believe is that me, the messiah, is a secret to this world.  I don't seek crowds or popularity, merely the desire to impact this world in a positive way so that I may see this following verse fulfilled: Isaiah 65:20. "There shall no longer be from there a youth or an old man who will not fill his days, for the youth who is one hundred years old shall die, and the sinner who is one hundred years old shall be cursed.  http://www.chabad.org/library/bible_cdo/aid/15996"

The people of this generation frustrate me.  They say, I am 80, therefore I shall die at an old age.  However, the greatest generation lived to be much older than their grandparents generation.  To the peoples of earth I beseech you:  There once was a time in the middle ages and the dark ages of Europe where the life expectancy was somewhere between a mere 25 to 30 years old.  If you had told these people that it would be common to see folks live to be 80 they would have laughed.  Certainly, all but a very small minority would have believed that living to 80 is possible.  It is this way with our generation.  I need for people to give up on the idea of living to a 80 and then dying.  Believe me, when I say that one who dies at 80 is but a youth.  Who can identify how old folks will live to?  I beseech you that we too are possibly like lobsters, which are hypothetically immortal (John C. Guerin (2006). "Emerging area of aging research: long-lived animals with "negligible senescence"". Annals of the New York Academy of Sciences 1019 (1): 518–520.doi:10.1196/annals.1297.096. PMID 15247078.).

A Friend I Have Lost

I lost my friend Geoff.  No, it is not that he is dead, or I don’t know if he is because I have ceased my communication with him.  Frankly, I left him for two reasons; firstly, the immediate one is when he blew marijuana smoke in my son’s face, at a time when he was so young that he could barely stand, and was just barely walking.  Secondly, it was time for me to grow up, and that was incompatible with having Geoff as a friend.  Geoff was fun when I was young, but there came a time when my recklessness needed to cease.  Geoff smoked a lot of dope, marijuana, but I did not, and it has been many years since I have, and when I did it was only like once a year.  So, I could no longer tolerate his dope smoking.  Additionally, I have sworn off alcohol, especially since its free radicals lead to aging, and one of Geoff’s ambitions was to have enough money to be an alcoholic.  Whenever, Geoff used to get money, he was completely irresponsible with it, spending it all on drugs.

Why Christianity Is Wrong

"Exodus 33:20. And He said, 'You will not be able to see My face, for man shall not see Me and live.'"


Then, why do people believe that Jesus is God?   Christianity is so absurd.  By definition in the 10 commandments, if you believe something that is an earthen vessal, even a human is a Gd, then that is idolatry.

The same is true with me.  I might claim to be a Messiah, but I am certainly not a God.  God is in me as he is in everthing in this creation, permeating it in conceiled omnipresence, as we can't see Gd.  Please don't worship me.  And, it is true that I believe Gd has spoken to me.  God's words to me where, "I am punishing you."  So, I said, "Why are you punishing me?"  And, Gd's reply was, "I get everyone sooner or later."  And, yet I do know that this qualifies as a hallucination, yet I trust that it was real and Gd spoke to me.

Things I’d Like to Do by Craig Hamilton the Christ

 

1.       Take Alex to see his Grandparents in North Carolina, and his Great Grandmother, Gram in Albany more often.

2.       Eat a lot of sushi.

3.       Sing a lot of karaoke.

4.       Spend time with my family.

5.       Go with relatives to Lake George.

6.       Eat a lot of olives from the olive bar.

7.       Play competitively at MTG a card game.

8.       Have a steady job.

9.       Lose some weight.

10.   Maybe play in a band.

11.   Go to Scotland & Ireland.

12.   Be a prolific blog author.

13.   Stay on Cape Cod.

14.   Go to Pawsox and Cape League Games (Go Bourne Braves!)

15.  Have some extra money.

6th Craig: Of Me and Edom - A Comment Made to Chabad.org on Why Do Rabbis Discourage Conversions? by Aaron Moss

I talked to a very nice laid back Rabbi. I informed him that my ancestry goes back to Edom, as in the Middle Ages Jews referred to the kings of these times as Edom. He was nice and didn’t turn me away. We both agreed that Edom did have righteous men. Without correction I mentioned that the names of people in Torah are like chemical formulas for what these people are like and Zerah is listed among Edom as a chief, while Zerah is also a son of Judah by Tamar. Thus, Zerah is righteous because, "for all your people are righteous (Sanhedrin)." Another example of an Edomite mentioned both as being of Edom and of Israel is Jeush. I would think that the predicted destruction of Edom in the prophets means that those righteous in Edom will either convert (to Judaism) or be slayed.

Craig Hamilton
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Craig Christ

That which emerges from your lips, you shall keep and do. - Deuteronomy 23:24

  This verse is the reason I cleave to the idea that I am the messiah. Though I said it all the way back in 2000 CE to a psychiatrist after believing that I was being poisoned with carbon monoxide, and that I had thought I had a conversation with Gd, this somehow emerged from my lips, and I don't know why. However, I was sincere when I said it.

That is, I was hospitalized for the first time for pyschosis.  During this hospitalization, I thought I had realized that I am the messiah.  At this time I was very sick.  I am over 6'0" tall, and I weighed 150 Ilbs, which is about 50 less than I should weigh at an optimal weight.  I couldn't remember to eat and bathe.  Sometimes I couldn't remember to class at Rutgers, and I also suffered from chronic fatigue and hyper-sexuality.  Prior to talking to Gd, my abilty to masterbate was the only thing I could take pride in, but then the Risperdal prevented even that.  I fell into a deep depression where I pondered killing myself all day long as I worked the Ridge Club Golf Course in Sandwich, MA.

Prior to my hospitalization, I thought I met Gd, and though it may have only been a hallucination, this hallucination of Gd caused me to believed.

God: I never thought you would get so far.

God:  I am punishing you.

Me:  Why are you punishing me (shouted)?

God: I get everyone sooner or later.

(The last comment, "I get everyone sooner or later," is possibly Gd's commentary on Isaiah 65:23. And it shall be from new moon to new moon and from Sabbath to Sabbath, that all flesh shall come to prostrate themselves before Me," says the Lord. - from www.chabad.org)